Excersise = YUCK

There are many things in this world I dislike but one of them is EXERCISING! UGHHHH! I don't know why I hate it so but I do, I really, really do! I have gained not one but TWO pant sizes since last summer. It is crazy to think how fast the weight goes on but man, it doesn't want to come off! I have been trying to do Atkins diet but I can't seem to get motivated enough to cook as much as I need to for that. I am not a huge fan of meat, I am such a picky meat eater so the diet is very hard for me. I like it because it gets me on the right track. I get disciplined to not eat bad food, helps me lose weight easier and I only have to be on it for a month or two and my brain is focused on not eating unhealthy things. I don't know what it is though, am NOT motivated to do it. I live with someone who is always eating, he wants to gain weight and even tries! Gosh, I just have to think about a hippo and I gain about 5 pounds at the thought! Damn, men! Now the exercises issue. I have tried my hardest to do something each day but oh dear, there is a little devil in my mind that talks me out of moving so much! I keep telling myself, "Erin, you have only two pairs of shorts, three tees and one skirt that fit you, get your fat behind up and DO SOMETHING!" That is not an exaggeration either, that is ALL I have to wear since I refuse to go out and buy clothes that fit however I am not doing anything about losing weight either. Last time I lost weight I wasn't really doing much of anything, I was on Atkins because my entire family was, so it was easy. I also was just doing some Pilate's just for something to do. I did some arm weights on other days and the weight went bye, bye. I had no expectations so I couldn't tell you how long it took. It seemed like it was quick but now I have expectations and I will try and exercises everyday and watch what I eat. Then I have a horrible habit of stepping on the scale and not one single itsy bitsy ounce has come off! I get discouraged and stop. Aghhhhh! I bought Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred because it is easy steps. I tried Tae Bo and I look like I am a child on too much sugar jumping around with my arms flailing every which way. I am not coordinated enough so I bought this new tape. Now I just HATE Jillian Michaels telling me to not stop, keep going, they are just jumping jacks, blah, blah! She even says, "these girls are in the same boat doing what you are doing!" Excuse me but THOSE girls are ripped and thin and are in shape! I am not any of those so you try doing all those jumping jacks with all this blubber bouncing around and then you tell me that! I seriously want to throw my shoe at her!

So, does anyone have any advice? How do I get out of this rut? Any eating advice, exercises advice? Please, I NEED HELP!

Communication or Lack There Of

Men, I just don't understand them and don't ever think I will. I really and truly believe that they imagine conversations in their heads or at night they dream about the situation and believe that they actually had this conversation in real life. So let me tell you one of MANY conversations that go this way, this one just happened about 30 minutes ago...

We will start with last week, maybe Tuesday or Wednesday the boy comes home for lunch and tells me one of two things. One of them is that we were invited to one of his friends for a BBQ this Sunday and that he hasn't responded to him yet. We talked how we were really busy this weekend because of it being the holiday weekend and the fact I am very much NOT a fan of this person. We both remember the part where I said, "Oh, do we really have to go?" And him trying to tempt me by stating they have a Wii. Please remember this was the first, last and ONLY conversation about this BBQ and the last statement was, "Well, I haven't responded yet I don't know if I want to go." Now, flash forward to today, the day of the BBQ. The boy comes in at a quarter to 12 and says, "two o'clock." Now I have not a single clue what he is talking about, thinking maybe he wants to go to the movies or something since it was mentioned yesterday and his words were kinda nonexistent. I respond with, "What? What is at two o'clock?" We need to be at "friends" house at two. So now I am wondering when WE decided on going. I ask him this and he says we talked about going. He took the little conversation I mentioned above as us deciding to go but I keep thinking to myself, no way could he have come to that conclusion from that simple conversation above. Surely if it was decided that we were going to go I would have asked the following, "What time is it at? How long do we have to stay?"(again, NOT a fan!) and "Do we need to bring anything?" Surely him knowing that I like order and having a plan would have asked those questions. Surely he would have asked if I wanted to go since he knows how much I disapprove of this individual. Nope, none of those questions were asked, just the simple convo I mentioned above was all the boy needed to come to the conclusion that WE decided on going. I really feel he had a conversation with me in his own head! Where do men come up with this stuff? Maybe it is me...Nah, couldn't possibly be me!