Excersise = YUCK

There are many things in this world I dislike but one of them is EXERCISING! UGHHHH! I don't know why I hate it so but I do, I really, really do! I have gained not one but TWO pant sizes since last summer. It is crazy to think how fast the weight goes on but man, it doesn't want to come off! I have been trying to do Atkins diet but I can't seem to get motivated enough to cook as much as I need to for that. I am not a huge fan of meat, I am such a picky meat eater so the diet is very hard for me. I like it because it gets me on the right track. I get disciplined to not eat bad food, helps me lose weight easier and I only have to be on it for a month or two and my brain is focused on not eating unhealthy things. I don't know what it is though, am NOT motivated to do it. I live with someone who is always eating, he wants to gain weight and even tries! Gosh, I just have to think about a hippo and I gain about 5 pounds at the thought! Damn, men! Now the exercises issue. I have tried my hardest to do something each day but oh dear, there is a little devil in my mind that talks me out of moving so much! I keep telling myself, "Erin, you have only two pairs of shorts, three tees and one skirt that fit you, get your fat behind up and DO SOMETHING!" That is not an exaggeration either, that is ALL I have to wear since I refuse to go out and buy clothes that fit however I am not doing anything about losing weight either. Last time I lost weight I wasn't really doing much of anything, I was on Atkins because my entire family was, so it was easy. I also was just doing some Pilate's just for something to do. I did some arm weights on other days and the weight went bye, bye. I had no expectations so I couldn't tell you how long it took. It seemed like it was quick but now I have expectations and I will try and exercises everyday and watch what I eat. Then I have a horrible habit of stepping on the scale and not one single itsy bitsy ounce has come off! I get discouraged and stop. Aghhhhh! I bought Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred because it is easy steps. I tried Tae Bo and I look like I am a child on too much sugar jumping around with my arms flailing every which way. I am not coordinated enough so I bought this new tape. Now I just HATE Jillian Michaels telling me to not stop, keep going, they are just jumping jacks, blah, blah! She even says, "these girls are in the same boat doing what you are doing!" Excuse me but THOSE girls are ripped and thin and are in shape! I am not any of those so you try doing all those jumping jacks with all this blubber bouncing around and then you tell me that! I seriously want to throw my shoe at her!

So, does anyone have any advice? How do I get out of this rut? Any eating advice, exercises advice? Please, I NEED HELP!