Saying Goodbye

If there is anything I HATE in this world it is goodbyes. Doesn't matter if they are goodbyes forever, goodbyes for a long period or a simple ta-ta for now, they all simply make me sad. Even as a child I can remember hiding my tears on the way home from the airport when we had to drop off loved ones. Today was no different. Today I had to say goodbye to Ryan. Yes, I will see him again but not sure of when. I don't know if there will be time before the six months or if it will be just that long. It amazes me how I only dropped him off at the airport 11 short hours ago but yet I miss him already. I then sit here and think of when we first moved in together and it was NOT so easy and how he drove me nutty. I am sure I drove him nuts too but lets not dwell on that. hehe Anyway, I was so used to certain things, my own way and most of all MY OWN SPACE! I wasn't used to living with a boy but yet I got so used to him and all his ways (well, the ones that I haven't changed) ;) As I sit here now all alone, I begin to laugh at how hard the beginning was for us but how hard we worked to get past all of that and how I just might miss all the Ryan things. It is weird to me that he will never come back to this apartment, our first home together and think how much things are going to change in the next year, the next few months even. If you know me you know how much I HATE change all most as much as I hate goodbyes but I am excited that today is the first day of a new chapter in our lives. We are off on a new adventure, not sure if its so fun right this second since I am doing so much organizing, cleaning, etc. but I can't wait for what is in store for us. So my Ryan, Ta-Ta for now and I will see ya soon in a new state and a new home! I am SO very proud of you and know you will do well in the acadamy!